Opinion | I Almost Quit My Career for My Kids. Then I Met Joan Darling.

[MUSIC PLAYING] HELLO. My NAME IS Shaina Feinberg. AND I AM A FILMMAKER. I’m also a mom. And i’ve Been Doing A Depressing Bad Job AT BOTH. [BABY CRIES] I’ve though about about giving up giving up giving up. HOPE I GOT IT. I’ve Gotten Rejection AFTER Rjection. EVERYTHING I’VE MADE IS LOW BUDGET AND STARS MY FAMILY. Here He comes. IT’S A BOY. BUT QUITTING FILLS ME WITH ANXIETY BECAUSE OF ANXIETY BECAUSE OF AN INTENSE FELSE FELSE FELSE FELT FOR MY MOM MOM GROWING UP. Don’t Worry About My Dad. He’s Dead. “Is TheYE ANYTHING THAT YOURET NOT DOING DOING IN YOUR LIFE?” YES, I do do do do. “What?” I wanted to be a performer. I was married. AND I HAD A Little Baby, And And THAT’S WHY I SUPPORT YOU DOING IT. “SO YOU YOU WISH YOU HAD DONE THAT?” YES, i think about it a lot. Yeah, i don’t do. I’ve SPENT My Life Determinated Not To Live With The Regrett Continues To Haunt My Mom. BUT LATELY, The Work-Life Balance Has Be Become SO Rough, I Was On The MY MOM’S FOOTSTEPS. And and then i found joan daryling. [MUSIC PLAYING] In some ways, joan is the exact opposite of my mom. Unlike My Mom, Joan Was a Career Woman. She ve tad no kids. AND Today she Has No Regrets. “You Want To Heared The Story? The Store Hat. Steven SpiS” Steven Spielberry. Steven SpiT “- WHEV I Ever Tell You The JoE PESCI STORY? Jackie Kennedy, Rue McClanahan, Barbra Streihana Strea Strei Strea Streisand, LIDRAH FAID, FARRAH FAID, FAID, FAID, FAID, ‘HOW SAID,’ HOW SAID, FAID, ‘How A Director? IS NOW 90. Buck In 1976, She Woman To Be An Eman In Directing For An Emmy In Directing, The First Woman Ever. She’s DirecTed Shows Like “Mary Hartman,” “” “Taxi,” “” “” TAXI, “” “” MARY HARTMAN, “” TAXI, “TAXI,” TAXI, “” TAXI, “TAXI,” “TAXI,” “TAXI,” And “Mashnum, I, on the Other Hand, DirecTed THIS. Mom, dad, iT’S HAPPENING. What’s’ happening? THIS IS IT. I CAN FEEL IT. I’m going. During The Pandemic, A Freelance Job i HAD CONNECTED ME ZOOM ZOOM JOAN. AT The Time, I Was Drowning In MotherHood. Hi, baby. In OUR FIRST CALL, Joan Told Me Sleep Some Of My Movies and Hadn’T Sinceone Since Aarly Sorkin. [SINGING] Joan’s Compliment Felt Like A Life Raft. SO IN ATTEMPT TO BALANCE MY CAREER My CAREER WITH My KIDS, I WENTS JOAN IN MEET JOAN. Wee In Kennebunk, Maine. I Just Learned To Drive. AND I REALLY LOVE IT. YOO REALLY JUST LEARNED? No. OH. I’m Just-I’m Just Starting The Day With You. Within Minutes of Minutes Of Meeting Joan, It Was Clear she Her Her Own Agenda. OH, OK THIS IS IS IS IS TheS – there – [LAUGHS] THIS IS GREAT. Shaina. Yes. SO What Are You Doing Here? Joan and i Spent Three Days Filming Together. Mostly, Weight Played. RIGHT. And what iT iT iT and i’m joan and you’re – oh, i love i love that. OK. OH, do i look all RIGHT? Do i hot stupid? No? OK. [CLEARS THROAT] AND ACTION. I think i’m a replate BAD ACTOR. RIGHT. You’re SO MUCH MORE ELEGANT THAN I Expected. You’re So Much Taller Than I – You’re Much Taller, DID MLOE? ” You’re Taller. Realts? I Mean, Think I Mean, Think i MetamuCil. ITOHT ITOWT ITOSON. ITAMUCIL. ITAMUCIL. IT IT IT SIT, IT IT Just a Rock A Rock. RIGHT. I GOT TO GOOTEL. RIGOME. The Outself. The Outself. The Outs Great ~ and Eventually, We Stops Got for WeSPed Playing, And Things I’m Pay’re Paying Attention. I’M Paying Attention. And Be Hypnotize Youhead To be beogrised. The Only Things IS IS IS The Quality of Youu Experience. [EXPLETIVE] The constructer. Got it? Mm-hm. When i Left Maine, i Realized I Really My Time Rere Rere Rere A Steama Bassett Groove A Steamy Love Affair With A Handsome Young Man, Played By Taye Diggs. Only in My Version, The Taye Diggs Role Was Angel Lady, And And The Angela Bassett Role Was Also A Jewish Lady. For the First Time Since Having My Kids, I Felt Like A WHOLE PERSON, NOT JUST ASSON, NOT JUST A STALLLED FILMMAKER. [MUSIC PLAYING] Being in main was getting a vaccine. Six Months Later, i Went To sees Joan A CONFAIN FOR A CONFIDENCE BOSTER, THIS. TIME IN FLORIDA. WHERE ARE WE? Cosmically or geographically? IT’S A SENIOR LIVING PLACE BECASE I’M OLD. AND I CAN’T BELIEVE IT. I don’t Know How Happened. THAT’S The SYSTEM. Yeah, THAT’S IT. THAT’S IT, KIDS. [MUSIC PLAYING] Being Around Joan Gave Me A Transfusion Of A Transfusion of Confidence, WHAT SUPISDE AGO WHAN TYT SUPISOSO WHEN THAT SUPSODE EPISOSOS BADSOOS. “CHAUCKLES BITS THE DUST Chuckles The Clown, Who Does The Kiddie Show, He Gots TO PEADE DRESSED AS PETER PEANUT. AND AS SAYS IN THE SAYS IN THE SCRIPT, A ROGUE ELEPHANT Shells HIM TO DEATH. EVERYBODY STARTS MAKING JOKES. Mary Just IS Furious With Everybody, Beer Feels IT’S DISRESPECTFULS’S DISCKLETFULS’S’S DEATH. AND THEN IN THE FUNERAL, WHEN The Priest Start Start ABOUT ABOUT CHUCKLES, SPOUT CHUCK LAUGING. AND THEN The Guy Calls On Her and Says: Go AHEAD. Laugh Out Loud. Don’t Youe? Nothing Wouldhing WOULD HAVE MADE CHUCKLE CHUCKLES HAPPIER. [CRYING] AND I SAID TO MARY, “LISTEN, I DON’TEN, I DON’T THINK THINKS TO REHEERAL WHEERSE THE LAUGH.” AND The First Time Sleep It, I’m Just GOING, “THIS IS SO BRILLIANT AND BY SAYING, “YOU KNOW YUOW YOOU KNOW YOOU KNOW YUOW DO IT DO IT. UOUK DO IT,” IT CAN KNOWOST LIMOST LIKE A TRIME INDUCTION. I’m Going To Hypnotize You Now. IT WAS ALMOST LIKE A TRANCE INDUCTION. That’S Exactly What shee to Me In Maine. She put a trance on me. “I KNOW YOuu Do. You Know You Kan Do It” [MUSIC PLAYING] Joan Threw Me That Life Raft. Imagine IF SOMEONEONE HAD DONE THAT FOR MY MOM. HER Life Wouln’tn’t Have Been Tinted By Regret. YES, i think about it a lot. Yeah, i don’t do. My Mom Made Career Sacrifice For Me and Lives Feeling Of Loss. Joan Devoted Herself To Her Passion, and She Feeds Fulfilled. As Fore, [CHILD CRYING] I’m in Uncharted Territory. Unwilling To Give Up OR MY KIDS, I’M Forced To Combine Them. [SINGING] Babies on The Bus Go wah, wah, wah. Will my children grarts to make a batch howms about I Guess It’S Just a Risk I’m Willing To take TAKE. [MUSIC PLAYING]