Boston Red Sox Outfielder Jaren Duran He said that his misery in the field within 2021 and 2022 of the season supported his fighting mental health to the extent that he tried suicide.
Duran, interviewed for “The Clubhouse: The Year with Red Sox”, which will be premiered on Tuesday on Netflix, said he did not meet his own expectations – and also the disappointment of others – pushed him in a very dark place.
“I’ve heard it from fans,” Duran said in the documents. “And what they told me (it was like),” I thought ten times worse in the mirror. “That was really hard for me.
“… I got to the point where I sat in my room, had a rifle and had a bullet and pulled out the trigger and clicked the weapon, but nothing happened. Do you want to be here or I don’t want to be here?” ”
Duran, 28, entered Majors with Red Sox as a newcomer in 2021 and hit 0.215 with 10 RBI in 33 games. The following season was just a little better and in 58 games hit 0.221 with 17 RBI.
His career, however, began his upward trajectory in 2023 after being dismissed from Triple-A at the beginning of the season. In 102 games he hit 0.295 with 40 RBI, stole 24 foundations and scored 46 runs. In 2024 he became All-Star for the first time and the MVP was this game and this season set his career maximum in Home Runs (21), Runs (111), RBI (75) and stolen bases (34).
Duran, which ended the eighth in the MVP vote, avoided the arbitration procedure of this Offseason and achieved an annual agreement for $ 3.85 million, which includes a team option for 2026.
“Jarren’s decision to share his story is an act of courage that goes far beyond baseball,” said the President and CEO of Red Sox Sam Kennedy. “It shows opening to others who may fight that they are not alone and that the request for help is not just right, it is necessary.
“Every member of this organization is still standing with him. He has our deepest admiration, he has always had our full support, and we are incredibly happy to have it as part of our team.”
Duran was suspended two games Last season to say anti-gay sun at the fan. Apologized and told the fans that he was “sorry for my actions” and that “I will work for them.”
In Duran’s documents, he said he was doing a daily diary and has a small reminder to help him focus on his mental health.
“On the (tape on) my left wrist, I write,” And I write on the right wrist, “Still alive” because I’m still here and still fighting. “
